Friday, October 24, 2014

Provoked Thoughts

       Firstly this blog post was inspired by a video I watched almost four years ago. It really spoke to me and I always wanted to share the thoughts it provoked. I never really had an outlet for that. Well now I do. I'll link the video here: http://youtu.be/UJAhtRg0GMQ

       If you would like to watch go ahead. It's over some gaming footage but I promise it's not a childish video about games. It really changed my outlook on some things. But hopefully if I convey what I think accurately, the video won't even be necessary.
       Now the reason all this came up was because deer season has begun. I've never been a big deer hunter. My dad and I have usually just stuck to ducks and things but this year I got a bow. I've been giving it my best shot but no luck so far. It will happen, it's just gonna take some persistence. So I've obviously found myself outside in the woods, field or anywhere outdoors more than is even usual for me. This has given me a lot of time to think about things. Nothing really in particular. Just life in general I guess. Which probably doesn't sound that special to some. In my opinion though, if you think that. Your missing it. This time alone to think helps me through my day to day so much more than you would think it would. It's something in society that I think we are extremely lacking in. Alone time is scarce to come by nowadays and for good reason. With us connected with our phones and everything else it's had to get away at times. There is always something to check or respond to. Our lives are so busy and scattered. In the video I linked above Adam (the creator of the video) says some things that I don't think I could have ever said better. One of those being: 

"When you have an over active thought process you tend to cherish the moments when everything is just, blank."

       This whole quote literally describes how I operate at times. I'm sure others feel the same. We are always constantly thinking or worrying about something. Stupid things, most of the time it's things that won't affect you in more than a week. Yet we worry and worry. When a moment comes that all thought diminishes it's a very foreign yet nice feeling. The feeling that I'm just here being me. I'm not worried, I'm not stressed, I'm just centered. Why don't we do that more often? How come before say for a high school student like me. Before a test why do we cram 5 minutes before? Even though we know we've studied, we are prepared and we know our material. Why do we keep stressing? Why don't we just take a deep breathe and center ourselves? People nowadays find it so hard to accept the outcomes of something. You may fail a test, you might loose your job or anything else. But what's to say these things WILL happen. Why do we stress out about these things when they aren't even imminent? And if they are imminent why stress. Accept that it's gonna happen. We are so scared of failure. I know I've talked about this a bit but it's just so prevalent in our society. You know? Bad things might happen. But if things are good right now. Why think about the bad? Enjoy the good. I know that this is kind of a step towards "Nectar or Carrion" but i still think its worth talking about again.

"This is an exercise I think in taking a step back, taking a breath. Realizing that what you may think is a big deal may not be such a big deal." 

       It's so true. I also feel like we are so fixated on perfection. Whether it be in our social lives, school, or jobs. We try so hard to be perfect. Even though we know it's impossible. Yet when we fall short we beat ourselves apart. Why is that? You and I aren't perfect. We both know that. This idea of thinking it's possible to be perfect is ridiculous. This brings me to the next quote. 

"Your never going to be at a point where you are the perfect version of yourself. It's just not gonna happen. Life is definitely a process, it's never going to end, you are always going to try to do your best and you know what? Your never going to be perfect and I think that the pursuit of that perfection is more important than the perfection itself." 

       This is one of the greatest concepts I think we can grasp in life. It's not about being a perfect person. It's about trying to be a great one. As good of a person as you can possibly be. The whole idea of a perfect person doesn't make sense in my head, yet I still try to be one. If you think about it, no one likes the guy that everyone thinks is perfect. That sounds really contradicting but I seriously can't think of another way to put it. Anyways, you know why no one likes that person? Because they know it's fake. They know it's impossible. This is something that I think is even more prevalent in my generation. No one my age is proud of their flaws. Everyone is insecure about every little flaw in their entire human makeup. Me included. This is a big issue. We aren't confident. We sometimes doubt ourselves about everything little thing we do. We need to own our flaws, embrace them even. It's what makes us unique. Without flaws you and I would be identical. How weird of a though is that? Without yours and my insecurities we wouldn't be individuals. So why don't we embrace them? In my opinion it all goes back to the idea of perfection. We are told from a young age what is expected of most of us. Which is fine. But sometimes that expectation is driven a little to deep. To the point of being expected to be good at everything we do. No one intends that. A lot of the times it doesn't happen. It just depends on the person.
       So I guess I went somewhere with this. It's just some food for thought. It might apply to you or it might not. Who knows. It feels good to be writing again. Really good... Thanks for reading! Have an awesome day!

-Willis
      
  

Friday, June 20, 2014

A Little Ramble About Life And The Beauty Of It All

     So I had a nice little conversation with someone recently that got me thinking about our society. It all started out with talking about how our society as a whole is so obsessed with looking "pretty" or "handsome" with absolutely no regard to keeping special individual qualities that define someone as who they are. This got me thinking of people I know that exemplify this through their day to day. They go through life trying to "fit in" Like there is this ultimate goal that they are trying to reach. But in the end there is literally no goal. Our society as a whole is so obsessed with appearance. Whether that be fashion, cars, your house, your yard, your children, heck anything! We as a society have decided that your first impression of a person is influenced more by a persons looks than say, their mannerisms or their qualities. You can have someone who fits a certain job perfectly. But, if they go to a job interview in jeans and a t-shirt or something that might not be seen as "the standard" they can be completely taken out of consideration for the job before more than a couple sentences are spoken. In my eyes that's ridiculous. People should aspire to be their best and everyone wants to look their best. But sometimes it's more important to be yourself than what others want you to be. 
     Our society is based on a standard: You should get an education. Get a nice paying job and go through the motions for the rest of your life. But what about adventure? What about your passions, ideas and dreams? To break the standard is frowned upon. A lot of people realize all these things and wish it wasn't like this. But they still follow the code, the same old same old. When in reality you and I set the standard. The standard is to not take any risks, to never live life on the edge, to stay in your comfort zone, and to not pursue your passion if it's "outrageous" But our passions aren't outrageous. It's who we are, and we are not outrageous. Everyone is extraordinary. Somehow we've all fooled ourselves in to thinking we are "normal" and I say that very sarcastically. Because if you ask me, no one is normal. Everyone is different and everyone is their own person. Another "normal thing is to be afraid to fail. Nowadays a kid at the age of 5 years old is already scared to take any sort of risks. We can't be afraid of failure like we are taught to be. We are going to fail. But no success story is complete without a good comeback story.
     I know this is very rambly but this is my thought process. We've become so comfortable with everything around us. We are so discontent with amazing blessings that's been given to us. It's like we are watching a beautiful sunset dip below the horizon but at the same time we are pointing out every flaw and imperfection in the hue. When we should just be thankful for the beauty in the first place. And to me that's a really good takeaway for life in general. Why point out all the wrong in something when your lucky to have it in the first place. We all complain and we can all be negative. But think about how much more enjoyable all our lives could be if we just stopped and thought about how immensely lucky we are to be alive. That's why I love nature so much. Every time I'm out in the woods or just in my backyard I have a small little moment of reflection. Just because it's what I find beautiful and it humbles me. The pure awe of it all almost forces me to reflect. What you find beautiful may be completely different. But whatever it may be, you probably find it easy to get lost in it. While you are lost in the beauty of life, just take a small moment to reflect on you and I's lucky little shot at life. And maybe, just maybe we will figure out how to see the beauty in all that we do and maybe we can find the beauty within ourselves. If we can accomplish that. We can accomplish anything.
     I don't know, I just had this all on my mind and I just wanted to write it all down. I hope I haven't bored you. If you made it this far than I applaud you. I know this has been quite scatterbrained and such but I guess that's just how I think. I wish I could muster myself to write one of these more often but I've had some major Writers Block lately. That's all I have for now. My brain has been churning away so be on the lookout for another one of these soon. Hopefully sooner than two months from now(;

-Willis




Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Clay Birds

     Started writing this after Easter weekend and haven't had enough creative energy to finish it until now. But during that weekend I got introduced to a new sport that was near and dear to my heart yet I had never actually tried it out.
      So one evening I got a text message from a family friend. He invited me to go to the skeet range with him and his sons boy scout troop in exchange of me letting his son use one of my smaller shotguns. I gladly accepted. Although I've shot for years I've never been to the skeet range. I've shot clay pigeons before but never in a very organized manner. It's always been just my Dad and I shooting out at my grandpas. One of us will shoot while the other will throw the targets and we switch of every now and then. Also on Thanksgiving every year it's become a tradition in the recent years to shoot clays with the rest of the family. We usually will have four or more people with guns in a line. When everyone is ready a fifth person will throw a "bird" into the air and we race to see who can get it first. This creates a fun and slightly competitive atmosphere that's hard not to love. Everyone is very involved and it's just great fun. But the range is a completely different atmosphere. This I learned quickly. It's serious but at the same time it's fun. The Boy Scouts were all fairly nervous or so it seemed to me. They were all pretty good shots even if some of the guns were a little to large for them. We only shot at one of the stations. But in full blown skeet shooting there are eight stations. You are permitted to shoot 25 shots. So if you score a 25 it's a perfect score. The eight stations are set up like a half circle from 3 o'clock  to 9 o'clock. And they are numbered from left to right one through seven. The eighth station is in what would be the center of the circle. On stations 1, 2, 6 and 7 you shoot four times. And on stations 3, 4, 5 and 8 you shoot twice. There are two "houses" they are really more like towers that house the machines which throws the clays out of the house. On the left house there is a window at the top of the house. This is called the high house. The high birds come out that window. The opposite house is the low house. The window is about waste level from the ground. So on the stations that you shoot four shots you shoot two singles and a double. So say your on station 2. You will shoot one shot at a high house target if you are on the left side of the field. Then a low house and finally a double. On a double the target is launched out of both houses simultaneously. The first one you shoot depends on which side of the field you are on. If your on the right side you would shoot the low house and then the high and you would do the exact opposite on the left side. You are given one optional. Which means that if you miss a target you get to reshoot at another from the same house and from the same station. You only get one of these for the whole round. If you get to the eighth station and hit both of your clays on number eight you get to shoot at a third which gives you the opportunity to get a 25/25. So those are the basics. It might be a bit confusing but it's not that bad. 
     Anyways on with the story. One of the guys who runs the club, a guy named Wade in about his early 70's, took notice of me. Since I shot a 21/25 now granted those were all going away shots on station 7 which most people say is the easiest shot on the field. He said that was quite good and he introduced himself. I might or might not have smarted off that I should have gotten all 25 on that station which he quickly assured me I was a long way from shooting a 25. So after most of the scouts left the range I went for another round. When he saw me lay my gun on the rack he jokingly said "Well if it isn't hotshot!" Hotshot huh? I thought to myself I wasn't incredibly fond of that but I could deal with it I assumed. We started off shooting the same shot we had been. After he realized that these were not any sort of challenge he said "Ok now your gonna shoot a high house which will be coming towards you. Let's see what you got Hotshot" I yelled "Pull!" And the target released from the window gliding towards me and to my right. I swung with the target leading it by only half a foot or so to compensate for the travel time of the projectiles and squeezed the trigger. The clay vaporized. He then said "Alright let's see you shoot a double. Shoot the low house and then the high house." So I loaded my shot gun, aimed at my hold point and gave him the cue. A clay soared out of both houses. I shot the low one at about the center of the field and it exploded into fragments. The second clay impacted some of the shrapnel and started to wobble but it kept it's course. I blasted it. Wade yelled "We got a club shooter!!" Which have me a good laugh. We shot for another half hour or so. Wade challenged me more and more with each shot. 
       It was a great experience and I went back the next day even. Ever since I've been so busy that I've only been able to go back once but I'm still into it nevertheless. I'm really excited about getting into it this summer. There's no real lesson I learned from anything it was just something awesome that I wanted to share. Thanks for reading, I love every single comment all of you leave or any type of input just gets me excited so keep it coming if you feel like you want to input at all and as always I've included some photography that I've been working on lately that I'm quite proud of(:
-Willis




Tuesday, March 25, 2014

The Calling

     Lately I've been thinking. Everyone should be scared just because of that first sentence. That's never a good sign. It's a sign of something wacky or outrageous. Something deep or philosophical. But no matter what I've been thinking about it always seems to be downright confusing and hard to explain. Which makes writing this little blog that much more of a challenge. It makes it interesting, frustrating and quite daunting at times. But nevertheless I write. No matter the quality of the idea or execution. So what have I been thinking about exactly? I haven't been thinking at much length about it but still I've put enough thought in it write. 

        It all started during spring break. For my break I went to Winter Park, Colorado with my church youth group. We stayed at a "bible college thing" it's hard to explain. But that's not important. I thought a lot on this trip. Whether it be on the slopes of the mountain while I furiously tried to learn how to snowboard or on the 14 hour drive to and from Colorado. I learned a lot on the trip but that's not really what I want to talk about. On the trip back while we were winding our way through the Rockies and towards Denver the driver of our van, a guy named Xeres, asked us some quite deep questions. One of those being what our calling is. I took time to reflect on the question as the rest of the students quickly answered the question as if they had known it from the moment of their birth. As I looked out the window towards the vast mountains I sat there in silence. Everyone was finished answering and I was still silent. Xeres asked me if I had any input on the topic. I told him to give me a second and then continued to look at the light dusting of snow that was occurring at the foot of the mountains. I pondered for a moment. Everyone in the van moved on to another topic and I didn't talk for a good number of moments until I came to a conclusion. I told him that I think my calling has something to do with my favorite things in life. While others might want to branch out and try new things I think that my calling goes into things that I already love. But I need to use these things to help others not just me. So the topic of hunting came up. Because it's my life right now. It's all I think about and it's all I want to do. I told him about how a couple of younger boys have been on my heart so to speak. That I need to get close to them, teach them things, take them places that they wouldn't go otherwise. And I can do all of those things by hunting. I told him how I thought it would be cool that even if it wasn't an "official" ministry at our church that a hunting ministry type thing would be awesome. At that point it kinda falls into a mentor ship esque thing. Not only are you showing younger generations a beautiful sport, but a lot of good conversations can happen while your out in the woods with someone. It made me think about how powerful something like this might be. People could have someone to open up to while still having great expieriences to bond with each other. And maybe it wouldn't just be MY ministry. Others could partake, adults could take teens and older teens that enjoyed the sport could mentor younger kids and it could be a really powerful thing in the church.

       This idea was enforced even more when I took my little sister out yesterday. It took some convincing but I got my 8 year old sister to come shoot guns with me. Now granted they were .22's (really small guns) which have no kick whatsoever but she still came. She shot with me and through that I got to teach her all kinda of neat things. My sister doesn't just get up and say that she wants go with me to shoot stuff. I don't think that's a normal occurrence with anyone's little sisters. So I wanted to make the most of it. Anytime I'm with her outside I try and teach her something that I know. But this was definantly a bigger opportunity. I got to share my love of firearms with her and better yet the girl can shoot. While she may have been nervous at first she got pretty good at it. We were shooting cams at about 20 ft or so but she actually hit one and by the end of the time she wanted to keep shooting. We went and shot into a pond which she thought was really cool. She had no idea that when a bullet hits the water it woul make a big splash. So the moment I did it she was begging me to let her try. It was a proud day for me to get to show her things like that. I got show her wildlife also. Some wood ducks flew over and screeched at us. We saw a blue heron and just overall had a good time while at the same time getting to teach her some things. She's so much fun to be around and sometimes I forget about that. 

       The expierience as a whole definantly made me think this mentor ship type thing is something I really want to do. I love showing people new things. Especially things that I love so much. I think that's what I'm being called to in all honesty. This isn't a very long post but it's all I got. So comment if you have any inputs or thoughts. Conversation can provoke thinking and things like this are important to think about. Have a marvelous day/night/morning/evening or whatever it is where you are. Do something to make the world awesome today.

-Willis

Monday, February 24, 2014

"Hunting Wolves"

    So this is gonna be long. It's not really a life lesson or anything. It's just something that I really enjoyed and I've been writing about for the last week. I took a lot away from the experience. I'm not sure if anyone else could but I wanted to write nevertheless.
      So last week I got the pleasure of taking a twelve year old boy named Noble on on his first hunt. This was something that I felt quite honored to do honestly. It's also something that I viewed as a huge responsibility and I hope I did an alright job at it. Now Noble has never really showed any interest in hunting. If you were to ask him if he wanted to go the answer would be "No." Every single time. If you were to ask him why he wouldn't just give it a shot he would say that he just didn't want to, plain and simple. I was the same way when my Dad asked me the exact same question. But after enough asking he eventually got through me. But I had been asking Noble for a long time, probably years. He wouldn't budge. But that Saturday evening after taking his older sister home and returning to my house for dinner I thought about making the proposition. At this point there wasn't a reason to say no. If I were to go by myself he would be left at the house with absolutely nothing to do. So he decided to cave and finally tag along. The problem was that by the time I had thought about going out it was time to be sat down and hunting. The sun was starting to set and daylight was quickly escaping us. 
       It was around 6'oclock when we decided to go. The sun has usually set within half an hour of then and shooting light is completely gone by 6:50ish or so. So it was quite a rush to get the car loaded and go. On top of all that Noble was not dressed for the occasion and niether was I. But there was no time to worry about that. My dark gray hoodie, jeans and sneakers would have to work. I found an oversized camo coat that practically engulfed Noble and when he put the hood on he slightly resembled an Eskimo. They just don't make hunting clothes for that size. So oversized jackets and coveralls is just what you have to deal with for a couple years. But it is what it is. 
       The hunting spot in question was a wheat field about 500 yards or more from my grandpas house. It's my favorite spot. On the South end of the field where the wheat starts to thin out and the bermuda grass starts to take over there are three very large pecan trees. Not much farther to the south there is a row of hay bales that my grandpa has stockpiled for sell and such. These bales will be our shooting/observation point. The bales are in the very South West corner of the field. There is a road that runs parallel to the field about 70 yards from the bales. Across the road is another wheat field completely covered in a green carpet of newly growing wheat, much like the one we were at. We set up my electronic call at the pecan trees. The trees are standing in a line. We put the call by the middle tree and pointed it across the road. The idea was that the sound would carry all the way through the bottom and hopefully draw in the furry canines. After the call was in place we headed to the hay bales. 
      Noble had been surprisingly quiet so far. He seemed to be taking it all in, or something along those lines. I completely understood his quietness. It was the same quietness that I had shown on my first hunt. He only broke the silence every now and then to ask a question about what was gonna happen. 
      When we arrived at the hay bales we covered up with camo burlap that I had stuffed inside my backpack. Noble said that it smelled like his old Halloween costume. It was a curious observation but I completely agreed. I never liked the smell of the stuff but it kept me hidden. Thats all I cared about. When I had Noble covered up I proceeded to do the same for myself. Once I had finished covering up I unfolded my bipod on my rifle. I asked Noble for the five rounds we had brought with us. I had put him in charge with keeping up with the cartridges. After he had dug them out of his pocket I quietly loaded the rifle. It was a .243 caliber, a medium sized rifle that had actually been my Dads main hunting rifle. Once I figured out the accuracy and power of the weapon I quickly commandeered it for my own outings. It's deadly accurate and easy to shoot. A simple bolt action, that has to be one of my favorite guns to shoot. Noble refers to it as a "Sniper Rifle" which always makes me chuckle. 
       When I had finished loading the rifle I picked up the remote for my call and turned it on. The sound of a rabbit in distress echoed through the bottom. It was not a pleasant sound and Noble quickly told me his disliking to the sound. It's one of those sounds that I have heard so much while hunting that I completely block out. The calls batteries have died before and I didn't even notice just because I forget the thing was even playing. Noble would quickly do the same to the sound, I hoped. 
       We patiently sat with are backs against the hay bales for only about five minutes or so before we heard the sound of a vehicle creeping down the hill behind us. It was my grandpa in "The Old Blue Truck" as the family referred to it. The suspension squeaked and whined as it came down the bumpy slope. He pulled up beside us and rolled down the window. "Have you seen anything?" He said. It was a rudundent question in my mind, for we had only pulled in ten minutes earlier but I replied with a no and that it might have to get closer to dark before we were to see anything. He told us how there had been a large number of dogs in the area the past couple of nights. Maybe due to the warmer weather. We weren't sure why there were so many but mid sentence we heard a distant howl. Noble looked at me and I smiled. It would be an eventful sundown. I just knew it. My grandpa said good luck and drove back up the slope. But halfway up he turned back around and pulled back beside us. "You need to make howling noises and those wolves will come a running. That's what you have to do when your "Hunting Wolves" I said that we might try it out and he continued on back to the house. I've always found it funny that he refers to them as wolves. They may look like wolves but they behave very differently. Instead of being pack oriented they are mainly solitary hunters. That or they will hunt in pairs. They don't hunt like wolves either. They mainly scavenge. I don't know, it's just one of those things that makes me smile when my grandpa says it for some reason.
        By now howls were echoing throughout the bottom from all directions. It's hard to tell how many coyotes were around. Two dogs sounds like five. But my guess is that it was ten or so. A ridiculous amount to have in one area of three or four square miles. Let alone just this bottom. We countinued to sit and observe. Noble's patience and silence was diminishing slowly. We started talking about school, gaming, hunting and anything else that came to mind really. It was nice just getting to talk to him. I havent been around hilaws much lately as I have in previous years so the talking was nice. Just the time with him was worth sitting out in the cold and trust me. It got cold. It wasn't cold when we first arrived but when the sun started to sink behind the horizon we started feeling the wind hit our faces and realized just how cold it was. 
       I countinued to scan the area and so did Noble. Then I noticed something. One small black dot in the field across from us. This did not get me very excited however because there are almost always geese on that field that look just the same as this dot did. But I thought it was worth a look with my scope. I told Noble I had spotted something across the road. He got a little more into the experience then. We were still hearing howls every minute or so but the dim light was leaving us fast. When I dialed up the zoom on the scope and found the dot in the field I instantly got butterflies. Excitement and adrenalin rushed throughout me. There were two full grown coyotes just sitting in the middle of the field about ten yards apart. I quickly handed Noble my phone and told him what I saw. I told him to dial my Dad. That land is not my grandpas and there wasn't enough time to wait the dogs out. So we were gonna have to make a move towards the dogs and I wanted to make sure we were allowed to. My Dad said it was ok and I hung up before he had finished his goodbye.
       I sprung up into a stand, my legs being stiff from all the sitting. Noble did the same. I told him to stick to my right side so I wouldn't have to worry about whether the rifle was pointed in a safe direction or not while I was walking. I was so ecstatic. It was the first time I had seen a coyote in ten hunts or so and I wanted to give Noble at least an eventful experience even if we didn't kill anything. 
        We slowly arrived at the road. We tried to stay low while still moving at a reasonable pace. We went through the already open gate. Now all that stood between us and a shot was a barbed wire fence and a deep channel where the creek flows. We crossed the dirt road and found the loosest part of the barbed wire fence in the area. It was too low to the ground to crawl under and it was too dark to try and go over. I also wasn't sure if Noble had ever went over a fence like this. There is a technique to it and if you have never done it. Well it's pretty nerve racking. So we were gonna have to go through it. I placed my foot on the bottom wire and my hands on the wire above that. I then pushed down my foot and pulled open a gap in the wire with my hands for Noble to go through. He carefully slipped through. The hole that Noble provided for me was not the size it needed to be. But a few snags later and I was through. 
      All that separated us from a shot now was some trees and the creek. The remaining daylight was almost completely gone now and it was evident that getting a shot in this light was close to impossible. We decided to not cross the creek and just find a gap in the sparse trees to scan the field. We saw absolutely nothing. "We must have spooked them." I told Noble. It was decided that we should pack up and head home. When all of the sudden a huge loud howl let out not a hundred yards from us. Noble looked at me his eyes wide like marbles. Howls and barks echoed through the night and Noble admitted that he was quite scared. I told him there was no reason to be. They would not hurt us. More and more howls echoed throughout the bottom from all directions. There was so many. I had never heard so many at once. The howls, no matter how much you hear them almost always send chills up your spine and give you goose bumps. I told Noble to stay put and I crossed the dried up creek bottom. It was about four feet deep and required some effort to crawl up the opposite side. A barbed wire fence was a few feet away from the channel so I crawled under it and deployed the bipod of my rifle and turned off the safety. Just in case I saw a dog. I began to scan the field with my scope. The dogs were still howling. I scanned for five minutes or more until I was satisfied that I had tried my hardest to find a dog and that there would be no opportunity to shoot. I whispered to Noble to come across the creek channel and come over to me. When I looked back he was covering his ears as if I was about to shoot. This obviously showed his youth a bit. He was scared but at the same time he liked it. I don't think he could make up his mind on his feelings. I had told him to stay there because I knew it would be hard for him to cross the creek quietly and I didn't want to spoil a shot opportunity if I was to get one. But that never happened. He crossed quickly and sat down beside me. He was still scared but he was getting used to everything. He asked if the coyotes had any idea we were here. I thought about it for a second and came to the conclusion that yes in fact they did know we were there. There was absolutely no way that we had snuck up on them. We were sitting at the very edge of the field in bright starlight. They were no doubt watching us. They must have just not seen us as a threat. That or they knew that they were completely hidden. It was kind of humbling actually. Knowing that this wild animal was not scared of you at all in that moment. It was humbling to know that for once you were not the apex predator. We just sat there listening to the howls and whispering to each other about the experience for about five minutes or so. We decided that we had done all we could and that it was finally time to head to the car. 
      We went back the way we had came. Through the creek, across the small pasture, over the fence, across the road, through the gate and through the wheat field. When we returned to the hay bales the call was still going. As I thought that maybe it would have made the coyotes on the other field move across the road. But that hadn't worked either. We grabbed our backpack and camo burlap at the bales. After retrieving the call at the three trees it was time to leave. The hunt was over. 
      Why we may have not killed a thing it's still one of the most memorable hunts I've ever been on and I don't think I will ever forget it. The whole experience was brilliant. Some of the best times I've had hunting have been the times that I left the area without a single thing to show for it. That's the beauty of it all really. Maybe there were some things we could have done different. I'm sure we made some mistakes but in the end it didn't matter and we didn't care. I think I will end it there. There may be no real lesson I learned from the experience but I still took a lot away from it. But I can't put what I took away in words. Maybe you can get something out of it or maybe this entertained you for a while. Either way, thanks for reading(:
-Willis





Thursday, January 16, 2014

Nectar or Carrion?

        This may seem like an extremely weird title, which it is. But I hope I can make sense of it. The other day I heard an analogy about how vultures eat rotten dead things and hummingbirds eat sweet nectar. So which one do you want to be and which one are you? Do you go around looking for the "sweet" things in life or the "dead" things? This got me thinking. While the analogy makes it's point I wondered if it could be expanded upon. So I I started researching a bit on both of these birds to find differences and special characteristics. If you think about it they are complete opposites. But let's say you compare each of these birds to a different mindset. The hummingbird in this case would be optimism, looking for the sweeter things. The vulture would represent negativity or pessimism. Now think about this. Think about how hard a hummingbird works. You can't even see his wings when they flap. Their heart rates can be up to 120 beats per minute and their wing beats can be up to 20 times a second or more. The hummingbird works so hard to do what he does. Some migrate all the way from Alaska to Mexico. That's pretty amazing if you think about this tiny little bird going that incredible distance. These birds have such a high metabolism that they must eat 5-8 times per hour to survive. They work so hard, yet they can accomplish an almost unimaginably long flight for their size. Now think about the vulture. Think about how you can see vultures gliding through the air. You can watch them for ages and you won't see them move their wings even a tiny bit. They go around looking for dead animals and such. That's how they survive. They can go long periods of time without eating because it takes them almost no effort to fly. They also have amazing eyesight. They are able to see things from distances that would be almost impossible to see with the human eye. These birds live a pretty boring life as well, they stay around the same area for most of their lives. They have no large migrations unlike the hummingbird. So what am I saying? The hummingbird try's his hardest to find the good things in life, even though it may be hard. But in the end he can accomplish so much. While the vulture doesn't even have to put much of an effort into finding the bad things. He can spot things and make them bad in his mind that others would not even think of as being bad. As you've probably realized I'm not talking about the birds anymore. I'm talking about two different types of people. The people who when they work hard and are optimistic, they can accomplish something great. And the people who are negative just because they can be, can do it with ease. They can make a good thing a bad thing with just solely their negativity. But in the end they will accomplish nothing. They will be a person who went through life without putting any hard work in and just being content with living on the dead things. So which one are you? The HummingBird or the Vulture? And which one do you want to be?

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

"The American Sense of Joy"

Like most of these little groupings of my scrambled thoughts they all seem to originate around this time of the night. When the house is silent, the lights are out and I'm still awake somehow, just laying here in bed deep within my thoughts. For some reason this happens more often than one might assume but on those special nights when my mind is running wild and has most likely been doing the same all day. It just seems like a good idea to write it all down. Not caring who might see it or how embarrassing some things I might write during my late night drowsiness could be. I write.  And all day I've been kinda focused on one thing within my thought process. That thought being, "Am I weird for thinking this way?" Not about how I actually think. But about my thoughts on my "American Dream" I know this might be a quite odd topic for someone my age to be really thinking hard about but for me it just seems like it deserves some thought. I was thinking about what most people's perception of this dream may be. I observed what most people really wanted out of their lives. What they were going to strive their hardest to achieve in their short time here on this planet. So after realizing what most peoples ideal dreams were I started thinking about mine. Now granted all of these people I observed were around my age. But as I observed I realized how dramatically different mine was from theirs. Most people my age are looking leave their hometowns as soon as they graduate go off to college and never come back. Then strive to be wealthy. I mean if you think back through history this really is the common dream between a lot of age groups. This since of manifest destiny to become wealthy and live an easy life. As I  reflected on this I realized that my dream in many ways was dramatically different. I understand the moving away and going off to some college when you are ready for it. But where the differences lie is after that. I wouldn't mind moving back to my home town. Getting a job here or making a job for myself for that matter. That might seem quite odd to others my age. Why the heck would I want to live in a small town for the rest of my life? Well I'm not entirely sure really. But I know that since I was even small I've always thought that wealth was not the peak or the apex of life. This title was held by something different. This is where I look to the authorities in my life. I look at how they have built a family. The way they look at my little sister and me their eyes filled with happieness. I don't understand it but I would love to have that feeling. They are happy. Just plain and simple and that to me is "The American Dream" this sense of connectivity to others, the steadiness of life. Being stable and enjoying the little things. You may not have the most money or the best house but if you enjoy every second of your day to day just relishing in the fact that you are alive and how amazing the people that you've surrounded yourself with are. And also realize how fascinating this world can be. That is happiness. Forever enjoying being alive. That to me is the apex of life. Not wealth or a big house. But happiness. Not just the usual being slighty pleased happiness. Some call this fascination with our lives joy. The sense of stableness and fufillment. I don't know. These are the things that run through my head sometimes. I would love to hear some other opinions on the topic. Remember to look for something to be happy about daily. Something to be Joyful about. And remember to do something today to make the world more awesome, even if it's just a little tiny bit. It all counts.
-Willis


P.S. Go support the band "Loraine" I listened to them the whole time I was writing this and I really enjoy their music. They reached out to me a years ago and asked for me to give them a listen. I was hooked right away and still listen to them today. Just great thinking music. And this is their awesome album cover that has been my background in my phone off and on for a while now. You can listen to their EP for free at  loraine.bandcamp.com